Monday, April 4, 2022

This Bright Sadness

It has been almost a month since I had to say goodbye to this little guy. Just after it happened I felt frozen. I couldn't even remember his nicknames. Then, the memories starting rushing through. Winston was such a character. He was a spunky little dude who liked to escape into the apartment hallway and run halfway down it's length and stop to see if I was chasing after him. Winston thought it was a game. One time, a woofie came out and Winston's tail bushed up to twice it's normal size. I couldn't help but laugh. I loved his purr. He would thank me for giving him his food. Purring, nudgin my hand before eating. When I came home from work, I would often see him in the living room window. Probably guarding his domain but it made my heart happy to see him. When the lockdown first started and the world seemed topsy turvy, I would wake up at night in a panic. I felt like I couldn't breathe. Then my eyes would light on Winston. He would be curled up at my feet. Sometimes snoring. Other times giving me a stinky glare for waking hime up. But just seeing hime would help me to calm down.
Just a few weeks ago, I was the computer and I felt a gentle tap on my leg. It was Winston bear wanting a little TLC. I was happy to oblige him. Those big blue eyes got me every time.
Winston loved a little game of kitty floor hockey. I would take his kibble food and try to score a goal :) If he caught the kibble my attempt at a goal was thwarted. He took this game so seriously.
He welcomed me when I came home. I don't know if anyone else was ever that happy to see me.
He was adventurous, bratty, funny, smart and a goof. Emily and I miss him very, very much. I'm a little tired of crying so often. Emily is extra sweet these days. I am so thankful for her. Thank you to everyone who took the time to visit and comment on that goodbye post. Your kindness means a lot to me. I'll close for now with this photo of Miss Em.


  1. Each pet that we love lives on in our memories--it takes so long to realize that they aren't going to be in a favorite spot, or waiting to greet us--each one unique. The pain of parting is great--and yet life would be lacking without them.

  2. Grieving Angel Winston will be on your own timeline; there is no right or wrong.
    Those memories flare up at unguarded moments.
    He was a part of your life; you and he technically shared atoms with each other, so the void left by his passing is real; don't let anyone tell you differently.
    Hugs and purrs.

  3. winston; we are sorry we never got to know you; you were one handsome and awesome dood. as time goes on, more memories will be there for your mom and we hope each and every one makes her smile and maybe even laugh. we understand right now it's hard.

    miss em we hope to get to know you in future posts, you are one gorgeous gal.

    please stop bye trout towne anytime; you may not understand our way of talking; but always feel free to pull up a chair and help yourself to what's: cookn on de grill =^..^= ☺♥

  4. We send purrayers and purrs to you and Emily, and we know youboth still feel Winston's spirit close by !

  5. Winston was such a special companion to you, and we're honoured that we got to "share" a bit of his life through your blog.

    Take the time you need to grieve and move through the process; it is what it is.

    We're glad you posted, though; you've been in our thoughts frequently, wondering how you and Emily are doing.

    Lots of hugs and purrs. ♥

    Derry and the biped

  6. Winston was such an incredible cat. I can’t even imagine what you and Emily are feeling.
    I too am glad you posted. I think about you and Emily often.
    Em, take good care of your Mum!❤️❤️❤️

  7. Winston was a special boy. It is so hard to let them go, but they are forever in our hearts and minds. XO

  8. Winston is loved always, and never forgotten. Thank you so much for loving him so much, and for sharing him with all of us.

  9. Sending lots of love and words of comfort to you as you share your pics of Winston. What a handsome much better looking than I! Fly free, furry friend. We'll always remember you and Em, give mom lots of cuddles. xxx Tom, Bridget and Penny.

  10. What a handsome boy Winston was. We are so very sorry for your loss♥