Thursday, May 24, 2012

Grief

Grief by cherithsky
Grief, a photo by cherithsky on Flickr.
It's so curious: one can resist tears and 'behave' very well in the hardest hours of grief. But then someone makes you a friendly sign behind a window, or one notices that a flower that was in bud only yesterday has suddenly blossomed, or a letter slips from a drawer... and everything collapses. ~Colette
Very early on Tuesday morning my sister called me to tell me that my dad had passed away.  While he had been ill, we had thought he was improving and his passing was a shock to us all.
I find that I keep forgetting things.  My thoughts and memories are all buzzing in a tightly woven tangle and situated somewhere
in my left temple.
His funeral is tomorrow.
No matter how difficult and conflicted our relationship was , his passing has shattered something inside ....
It's too early for me to piece anything together, come to terms with anything, and any prayer I have
managed to say is only a, "please God"
Until later, I wish you all a lovely week.  Be thankful for the small things

4 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a parent numbs you. So much flows over you at a time like this. I hope you remember to take care of yourself at this time. Hugs, Deb

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  2. I am so sorry. I don't know what's like to loose a parent but it must be terrible. Take care of yourself. Big hugs. bobbi

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  3. Maggie,
    I am so so sorry about the death of your dad. Goodness, you are so right; it doesn't matter the relationship, it's a loss and leaves a huge void. I am thinking of you and praying for your strength.

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  4. you moved me so much with your gentle, sad and insightful post. We are sending you our supportive thoughts and want you to know that we are so sorry about your dad. Take care, Hug. Love Helen, Darcy and Bingley xxx

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